My Dear...
Ryan Ng Chen Wei...

U not Handsame...
But u r Cute...
U not a Good BoyFriend...
But u is a Good Lao gong...

Im not a Pretty Girl...
but i got a Sweet Heart To Love U Forever...
Im not a Good Girlfriends...
But i will be the Best Lao Po...


You light up my life...
You mean the world to me...
My heart belongs to you...


I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you...
Our love will stay through the years and ive through the good and bad.It will last forever...
I Believe in You and Me. I Believe That we will be in love eternally.You will always be the one for me...
Anytime you want me, I'll be true here for you. Anytime you need me, I'll be here for you...
Please let me give you my heart completely...
Dear, please don't doubt. I will love you still from the depths of my heart and grow old with you...



if i had to live my life without you near me
the days would all be empty
the nights would seem so long
you i see forever oh so clearly
i might have been in love before
but i've never felt this strong
our dreams are young and we both know
they take us where we want to go
hold me now touch me now
i don't want to live without you
nothing's gonna change my love for you
you oughta know by now how much i love you
one thing you can be sure of
i never ask for more than your love
nothing's gonna change my love for you
you oughta know by now how much i love you
the world may change my whole life through
but nothing's gonna change my love for you

if the road ahead is not so easy
our love will lead the way for us
like a guiding stari'll be there for you if you should need me
you don't have to change a thing
i love you just the way you areso come with me and share the view
i help you see forever too
hold me now touch me now
i don't want to live without you
nothing's gonna change my love for you
you oughta know by now how much i love you
one thing you can be sure of
i never ask for more than your love
nothing's gonna change my love for you
you oughta know by now how much i love you
the world may change my whole life through
but nothing's gonna change my love for you

sunday...
damn boring at home...
my boy dint go genting...
today he go working...
when he finnish working...
he saw his car got something happen...
"Got Someone Glue His Car"....
shit...
damn FUCK la the ppl...
why wan make his car lik tat wor...
haiz...2moro dont can go out wit him a not...
haiz...sad...
Hope the FUCK ppl faster going DIE....
SHIT ppl...


now my boy go watch movie wit dickson again...
i miss my boy..
i wan him...
i need him...


i so boring now...
i so lonely...
i so sad...
i so moody...

i wan go out wit my boy...
i wan go shopping wit my boy...
I WAN GO OUT....

saturday...
boring at home...
my boy call me go genting wit him at sunday...
i wan go...
but cannot...
i noe my dad sure ask me a lot things wan...
haiz...
sad...
cannot follow wit my boy go...

now my boy wit Dickson watch movie...
waiting he come back...

then i busy my work 1st...
type word....
busy busy busy...
faster finnish it...

My Thursday

thursday tat day morning my dad fetch me go rainie house....

cos i go my boy house...

me at rainie house wait him...

my boy not yet reach...

then me n rainie chatting 1st...

we chatting a lot things...

secret...

then 8am lik tat my boy reach rainie house edi...

then we go klang lo...

fetch rainie go dickson house 1st lo....

then go back my boy house....

11am lik tat rainie call me say go eat "bah kut teh" o....

then ok lo....

wait my boy finnish bath lo...

dickson already call my boy 3 times edi...

but 3 times also is me answer....

hehe....

then reach the restoran edi...

eat lunch wit them lo....

klang the "bah kut teh" not bad oo...

nice...but expansive....

nvm la...

1st time eat klang "bah kut teh"...

hehe...

yiii...

not o...

is 2nd time la...

1st time is my boy dad buy for me eat de...

hehe...

nice nice...

next time go eat again...

finnish eat then we go klang jusco watch movie lo....

we wan watch “ON HIS MAJESTY'S SECRET SERVICE ” wan...

but 5pm.....

nvm lo...

change...

we change watch "LAUGHING GOR(18PL)"....

then ok lo...

the ppl say wan IC....

then give her lo..

we also 18 years edi...

but cant watch...

y....

becos rainie just 17 years only...

so nvm lo...

dont wan watch edi...

cancel it...

cos all the movie also 18Pl wan....

then nvm lo...

then me at rainie go toilet lo...

we chatting at toilet got 10 minute edi...

then my boy call me y go toilet so long time wan...

hehe...

we go walk walk lo...

then go jusco buying things eat....

we buy sushi eat....

then go back my boy house again....

we eat sushi lo...

he make ribena for me drink lo...

1st time my boy make ribena for me drink...

hehe...

nice nice...

we watch TV 2gether lo..

he like me to hug him...

i also like to hug him oo...

hehe...

then he bro come back...

then i call him "kor kor " lo....

he say "hi" then smile wit me ...

finnish eat me n my boy go back room sleep lo..

sleep until 5pm then wan go back lo...

i wan 5.30pm just go back de..

cos raining.....

i noe will jam wan...

so early go back...

wth...reli jam la...the car look lik dint walk wan...

shit...

i go back tuition there wait my dad....

must late edi lo...

tat time i very very scare la...

if i late edi i must die lo...

but i noe my boy wont let me got something happen wan....

he will protect me de...

i holding he hand until i go back tuition there...

yeah...

7pm ngam ngam reach tuition there....

then i faster walk to tuition there....

still raining..

haiz...

at tuition there wait 15minute my dad come edi...

hu hu...

lucky i dint late...

shit...

jam 2hour...

5pm go back....

7pm just reach...

haiz....

reli jam la...

lol...

then i in my dad car i sms my boy lo...

told him i at car edi..

hu hu...

lucky la today..

haiz...

next time dont lik tat again...

scare..

OMG...
my dear getting FOOD Poised....
shit... :(
haiz...
he n his mom also eat wrong things...
just now he go see doctor edi...
doctor say he getting food poised....
then give him eat medicine lo...
hope he getting better o...
haiz...
so sad la...
i dont wan my dear lik tat....


just now i call him...
i hear his sound lik sleeping...
then i call he sleep lo...
he suddently talk wit me so laughter....
he say "i dint sleep ok"....
i feel he so angry...
then i said "oo...u do ur things 1st"...
then i close his phone edi....
i though he sleep ma...
y he wan talk wit me lik tat wor...
haiz...
i dont wan argue wit him...
i just silent...
now he dint find me...
i also dont no wan how....
just feel sad....
i so hate he tell me tis word...
" watever u say"...
i hate...
i hate he say tis word to me...
i hate he say bad word wit me....
I HATE IT...
u noe ma....???!!!!!!

erm...
yesterday night my mom come back edi....
haiz....
she buy some food for me eat...
i noe my mom care me de....
if not she wont buy food for me eat...
she come back home then can edi....
but she still wit dad lik tat....
dint talk wit each other....
haiz....
wat can i do...
just hope they everything is ok...


got 1 week holiday...
stay at home....
damn boring....
faster finnish my tuition work....
n do revision for my SPM percubaan test....
add oil ya...!!!

yesterday my mom n dad argue...
today morning my mom missing edi...
i dont no my mom go where...
i cry edi....
i call her dont wan answer my call...
i dont no where she go....
i so worry about her now....

mommy,where u go....
faster come back home can ma.?...

my dad n bro go out edi...
my dad look lik nth happen...
he dint call my mom...
y wor...
y he wan lik tat....
now he go out edi...
he dint go find my mom...
haiz...
my bro also...
all dont no go where....
now just me at home...


just now argue wit dear again...
i dont no y he wan say me lik tat...
say i everytime lik tat...
i how wor...
u noe u now i very sad ma...
u noe i very moody ma?...
u still got mood go watch movie wit dickson...
haiz...
i dont no wan how ar...
i dont wan argue wit u again...
u wan find me just find me ba...

y today got some happen for me...
today is my bad days...
haiz....

dear dint sms me...
msn dint find me....
wat he doing...
i miss me...
i need him...
haiz....


now i crying...
im sad...
im moody...

yesterday when i reach school...

i ponteng....

my boy come my school fetch me n my friend rainie....

he fetch rainie go his friend dickson house...

then just fetch me go his house...

reach his house then at he room lo...

he bao his sister come the room...

then i bao his sister....

he sister so cute la..

hehe...

very like to kiss me...

i sleep wit my boy...

then rainie call me say he come my boy house now....

then i wake up lo....

n my boy waiting they come lo...

i go play wit my boy doggie kingston...

then i hear his father n mother voice...

i ask my boy maid izit father come back...

then she say ya...

then i go out lo..

see his father..

then i call her uncle lo...

he smile wit me say "ya"...

then i go back my boy room lo...

dickson they coming my boy house a while...

then we go out watch movie lo..

we watch "orphan"...

the movie damn crazy n scary la..

lol...

u all go watch tis movie la...

damn nice...

when watch movie tat time....

me n my boy got some argue...

i dont no y he suddently lik tat...

at cinema he also dont wan talk wit me...

i also dont wan talk wit him...

the movie finnish edi...

then me n rainie go toilet lo...

i cry infront of rainie...

then i go out at toilet...

my boy call me...

i dont wan care him...

then he holding my hand...

i push him...

cos tat time i damn angry...

i ignore him....

then i alone go parking there wait my boy...

then rainie call me where am i...

i call rainie go eat wit dickson...

me at parking there wait my boy...

on the way go back...

my boy ask me wan eat ma...

i stil ignore him...

dont wan talk wit him...

then he holding my hand again....

i saw his face very sad n moody edi...

so i dint push his hand...

i very tired...

then i sleep at car edi....

when i reach my grandmom house..

he call me wake up...

i see he still holding my hand until come back my grandmom house...

then he teman me go up lo...

reach my grandmom house...

my boy hug me...

he cry edi...

i feel so sad...

y he wan cry...

he hug me cry to say sorry wit me...

he said he dont wan treat me lik tat...

he very sorry to me...

i told him im nth...

i just dont wan lik tat wit him...

then he kiss me...

i hug him a while...

then i call him go back edi...

P/S:dear....u promise me...dont make tis happen it again..i love u o...remember o...i just love u...Mr.Ryan....

thursday tat day i got SPM Percubaan Test...

tat day Test is bahasa cina....

oh shit man...

i not enough time to write my karangan..

i still got a lot word dint write...

damn fuck...

shit...

hope i can pass...

pls...

God Bless Me o...

getting sick edi....

yesterday dont no eat wat wrong things....
make me stomach pain n vomit...
until me so pain now...
yesterday night my dear call me....
aftetr finnish chatting wit him...
suddently cough....
feel wan vomit again...
then faster go toilet...
vomit out i eat the food...
shit...
then stomach pain...
go so many times toilet....


until today still lik tat....
not well also...
go toilet again...
haiz...
pain...


my grandmom getting sick also...
she cough n shang feng....
haiz...
until now not yet getting better...
i told my mom...
my mom call her brother fetch my grandmom go see doctor...
hope my grandmom wont say me "ge bo"...
cos i just worry her only...
i dont wan she sick la...
she already old...
so hope my grandmom everything is ok...
faster getting better o...
love my grandmom....


hope me also faster getting better...
2moro got SPM percubaan test....
bahasa cina test....
i wan pass...
i wan get gred B or C....
gambateh...

ok la...
i wan go do revision la...
n wating my dear come back his grandmom house...

katherine ....
gambateh....

moddy...
haiz...
i hate my boy see leng lui...
just now he go sunway wit his parents...
he call me chatting wit me....
he told me...
"baby,got leng lui o"...
when i hear it...
i straight close his phone....
tat time i damn angry...
damn moody edi...


now he got 2week holiday...
tis few day he play games also dint accompany me...
he can play until dint sms me...
dint answer my call...
just now i call him...
i ask me doing wat...
he not yet answer me i already noe he play games....
y...
y he cannot accompany me....
"DOTA N Games is his LIFE ma?"...
izit important than me?...
now u got holiday u also dont wan accompany me...
u noe i very sad ma....
i unhappy u noe ma?...
i sad u noe ma?....

if i lik u...
u will how?

if i dint find u...
u will how?

u noe wat i thinking now ma?
u noe wat i feel now ma?

u dint find me izit nth?
im not important for u izit?

izit wan i gone edi u just will care me...?

i reli dont no i can do wat edi....
feel down now...
moody....
CRY...

raining now o...
dear play dota now...
haiz...
DOTA AGAIN...!!!!!
i hate it la...
lol...
but can how....
boys is like play DOTA wan....
play until forgot gf wan..
haiz....
make me alone at there....
lonely...
boring....
haiz...

my boy go out come back finnish eat then start his competition....
"DOTA"....
haiz...
msn ask him doing wat...
ask him izit plat DOTA....
he said "YA"....
give him "gek sei" edi...

haiz...
let him play lo...
play until get a champion come back....
he is a DOTA KING....
heng...
hate it....

i die edi he allso dont no...
still at there playing " DOTA"....


now i getting sick edi...
throat pain....

haiz...
my sick coming again....
sometimes will lik tat wan...
haiz....
getting DIE jor....
:(

yesterday dint go school...

i ponteng go my boy house...

Rainie follow me....

my boy so early reach my school wait me..

my dad fetch me go school edi then i up my boy the car...

then he fetch me n rainie go his house...

reach his house edi then i change cloth...

then saw his mom...

call her "aunt" lo...

then play wit his baby sister...

hehe...

damn cute....

10.00 something lik tat we go eat wit dickson lo...

then go jusco walk walk lo....

actually we wan watch movie ...

but the time so late...

so dont wan lo...

then we go back lo...

dickson fetch me n my boy go back house lo..

then dickson fetch rainie go his house la...

go back my boy room then we sleep la...

until 2.30pm lik tat i call my boy fetch me go back lo...

cos i damn tired...

he fetch me go back grandmom house la...

hehe...

next week dont no wan ponteng again a not leh...

thinking now....

haha...

i very very moody now....
i just wan cry...
y...
y we wan lik tat again....
YYY.....

haiz...
u noe wan i wan ma....
i dont wan argue wit u again...
i already tired.....

today dint go school.....
i feel geeting sick edi....
got a bit fever jor...
haiz....
pls la...
i dont wan sick...
i scare will kene H1N1 la..
lol....
now outside raining edi....
cold cold now...

today at home nth do...
do my work .....
type word for tuition student....
chantting wit friend at msn...
play friendster n facebook....

my boy dint sms me....
cos his phone no credit....
nvm lo...
but he reach home got call me la...
hehe....

2moro go school....
friday maybe will Ponteng....
hehe...

today got a bit not well...
throat pain....
haiz....
2moro dint go school....
stay at home.....
cos my school got a malay girl kena H1N1...
so i scare la....
wit my friends dont wan go school.....
hehe....

now my dear revision for 2moro maths test o...
dont disturb him 1st....
let him study....
dear,gambatah ya....
darling support u o...
give u a lucky kiss....
muackxx....



just now my best sister sms tell me....
my ex bf sms her....
but i feel nth ....
i dont care edi....

i just got my dear...
i love him....
i wont thinking of my ex edi...
i wont cry becos him edi....

i just be his normal friends only...
he dont wan i also dont no how...
just lik tat only....

at toilet...very dark....

baby n ice....

ice look so happy o...

eat steamboat n BBQ at kuchai lama....

ice say the watermelon yummy o...

my cute dear....new look for him....damn cute...i like it...

dear buy for me the ring...."our love is forever"....

we take the sticker pic....nice nice....

we look so match oo....got "fu qi xiang"...all my friends also say like tat...

ice n katherine....

at toilet take pic....tis look izit nice?....

yestersday go out wit my boy n my my best sister...

morning ice n rainie come my house 1st....

then after i finnish make up n change cloth....

we go restoran drinking....

wait my dear come fetch me....

my boy 11.30am lik tat just reach....

then we go TS take movie ticket 1st lo...

finnish take then we go SW take sticker pic....

finnish it then go gasoline eating lunch....

at gasoline there wait my baby come o...

then we go back TS watch movie...

we watch "the proposal"...

so funny la the movie....

hehe....

make me so crazy....

hehe....

finnish watch it then we go walk walk lo....

my sister they 1 them go lo....

then me n my boty 1 them lo...

i go find shoes shop lo...

i wan buy shose....

my boy say buy for me....

but i go find...

dont have i like tat 1....

then nvm lo...

we go walk walk lo...

then i saw the ring ....

dear say buy 1 pair lo....

hehe....

i choose wan...

got make name...

nice nice....

i like it....

thx dear....

5.30pm lik tat then call my sister go eating lo....

wait them at parking...

then together go lo...

we go kuchai lama BBQ steamboat eating o....

1 ppl only RM22 only...

very cheap....

got a lot food o....

like buffer oo....

we eat until so full o....

8.00pm lik tat we finnish eat then go back lo....

my boy fetch rainie go back 1st lo...

then fetch ice n baby go emily house lo...

then we go back lo....

8.30pm lik tat i reach home edi...

but i feel today my dad so weird....

i already late go back...

but he whole day dint call me...

weird weird....

hehe....

but i like o...

i dont wan he call me la...

lol....

yesterday so happy o...

thx dear....

darling love u so much...

remember our promise o...

erm....

today my school got a bad news.....

is...

got a form 5 girls kena H1N1....

shit....

lol...

i so scare la...

now when i at school i need use mask edi...

i scare i kena....

"god bless me n my dear o"....

=.=

today damn boring at home....

erm....
morning go cutting my hair...
wah the....
infront so short la...
shit....
look lik sohai....
hate it...
2moro dont no how to go out....
scare give ppl laught....
shit...
haiz....
nvm...
i pin it...

2moro go out wit my best sister n my boy....
yeah...

erm...
hope my dad dont ask me a lot things...
pls....
dont ask me again...
i just wan happy go out wit my friends only...
pls dont make me no mood....
pls...

today my dear got test...
dont no how leh...
now he sleeping o...
wait he wake up....

our eat the food....

our drink...

my boy....

thx little li....

wit cute bear...wit birthday card....

wit almond famous biscuit...

wit cute pink bear,chocklate....

dear but for me the present.....

today my birthday...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME...!!!

"18 sui,pok pok cui"...

hehe...

yesterday night wit my boy argue...

but now nth happen edi...

today after i finnish school my dear go fetch me celebrate my birthday...

when we find parking edi...

then my boy call me close my eye....

then i said "wat u wan do la"....

then he call me open my eye....

i saw a present infront of me....

hehe...

very nice..

i like it o...

thx dear give me a surprise...

then...

we go ioi mall "Fridays" eat dinner....

the food very nice....

but i feel very expansive....>.<...

after finnish eat we go back lu...

go my grandmom house..

i stil dont wan go back 1st...

then ..

at near at lif there...

erm....

sweet sweet lo....

hehe....

erm....

sunday go out again o....

wit my best sister n my boy o...

go TS n SW...^^

for my dear...dear...

thx ur present o...

i like it very much o...

erm...

n thx u give me a surprise....

i noe u use a lot money in my birthday...

i wont forget it...

wont forget today...

u make me got a sweet birthday....

always in my mind..

i love u forever...

muackxx....

for my all dear friends..

thx u all birthday wish....

i also hope my dream can become true o...

^^