today is chinese new year n valentines day o...
happy chinese new year....
happy valentines day...

just come bak fromn mid veally wit dear dear...
we celebrate valentines day....
when reach there we go eat dinner 1st...
at "delicious"....
then go the gardens watch movie...
but all also late..
so dont wan watch....
then go walk walk lu...
dear dear give me a surprise....
he at famous amos buy a flower for me...
inside got chocklate n bear bear...
nice nice...
thx dear dear o...
muackx...

then we go bak lu...
reach home already 9.30 lo...
2moro go my grandmom house...
^^

nite nite...
waiting my dear reach home...

yup...
he dont have feeling on me edi...
y...
last year today...
is my ex break wit me...
tis year toady...
is my bf dont wan me....
but..
we havent can say break up...
cos we give us a chance to continue...
but...
i scare will break..

dear...
y i do wrong...
y u wan treat me lik tat....
i dont wan u treat me lik sister...
i dont wan be ur sister...
just wan be ur gf...
if u reli cant together wit me...
then i dont force u la....
i let u go...
cos i noe....
i cant get ur heart again...
but...
now we still got chance...
i will try my best to get ur heart bak...
i noe i can do it...

dear...
just wan told u...
if we break up...
i still will love u...
still will miss u...
still will worry u....
still will care u....
cos i cant change...
i cannot change i treat u the feeling...
never can change...
is heart pain just only me pain...
give ppl hurt only me...
i just wan u happy...
then i also will happy...
maybe u without me u will more better...
will more happy...
but u leave me edi...
i wont happy anymore...
wont smile anymore...
i said wit u edi...
"without u...no more life for me"...

i feel i so useless...
cant make u love me so much...
but...
i just wan say...
i love u so much....
Ryan Ng Chen Wei...
i cannot leave u...
i cannot loose u...
u r my only one....

CANT....

be4 when i call u leave me....
then u hug me cry n say....
"babe,dont leave me"....
tat time i feel....
y u will cry becos me...
i feel very touch...
cos is u 1st time cry becos me...
so i just will give u a chance...

izit u together wit me so long...
u just will feel so boring...?
wat happen on u...
i reali dont no...
when we just can lik be4....
very sweet...
very happy everyday....

u already very long time dint say some sweet word wit me...
dint hear u say wit me " i miss u babe...i love u babe"....
y...
i love the ppl dont love me...
i dont love the ppl love me...

y my relationship wan lik tat...
izit i always will give all my bf bluff....
give they hurt me??
huh....

i already tired...
where is my true love...
where is my lover....
where is my husband....
where my sayang mw the ppl??
where they go??

ryan ng chen wei...
is u ma?
u told me...
can ma...

i cry again....
now i everyday also just will cry...
i already try my best to treat u edi...
y u still cant tresure me???
or u wan i die edi u just will treasure me....
huh....
izit wan i lik tat??
now i very down...
very moody...
very sad...
damn stress....

So maybe it's true,
That I can't live without you
Well maybe two
is better than one
There's so much time,
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undon
eAnd I'm thinking two,Is better than one