ltr dear will go clubbing wit his friends....
but me ....
at home crying wait him bak...
i damn heart pain....
i said let him go...
but my heart not thinking lik tat wan....
now my heart is very pain....
n crying now....
cos i scare....
there got a lot leng lui....
i dun no wat he will do....
he see leng lui sure got wan....
but....
i jealous....
i damn jealous...
cos dear is mines wan....
he always is mines wan...
he promise me tis time is he last time go club....
i will trust him....
dear....
faster go bak home....
babe reali very need u...
DEAR...!!!

21th sunday is me n my dear together 1 years anniversary...
wi~~~
happy happy...
so fast leh...
already together 1 years..
ya...
sometimes we argue....
but...
i noe we will nth wan..
we will more better....
will more understand each other....
sunday will go celebrate wit dear dear...
hope will get a enjoy n sweet memory on tat day....
excided to waiting tat day....

for dear dear...
dear...
thx for u tis 1 years take k me n caring me...
love me n sayang me...
babe love u so much...
hope we can together forever....
we still will every year celebrate all the days...
i wan always at beside u....
i will let u take k me forever...
muack...
dear...
i love u so much....

last 9 i sick edi...
then i tod today u will come find me n take k me...
but leh...
u say go eat wit friends....
then dint come...
u go eat wit friends more important come take k me rite...
im still important for u ma...
how much u caring me...
i already noe...
im important for u a not i also noe...
next time i sick edi also dont wan tell u...
cos u wont 1st time come find me...

i feel so sad...
y my dear will so rude now...
who teaching him lik tat....
everyday say bad word....
talk wit me everytime also will say "diu"...
be4 he wont treat me so rude wan...
now de dear dear...
already change...
he will beat me liao..
tat time he beat me until very pain....
but i dont wan tell him...
i just tolerate only...
he will say bad word wit me edi....
im his gf ar....
y he wont say sweet word wit me...
i damn hate he treat me lik tat...
i damn heart pain...
everyday i just will sad...
i sad becos he do all tat...
but him leh...
just will say i everyday also cry...
he dont no wat reason i will cry...
he say me together wit him not happy...
he is wrong...
im not together wit him unhappy...
i very happy got him....
i unhappy is becos he treat me rude...
wont sayang me...
wont treat me lik his bao bei...
he say will protect me...
but now he treat me so rude he not protect me edi...
sometimes i damn hate him...
but i just hate him awhile...
cos he is my dear...
i bu she de hate him so long..
sometimes he say me fan...
say me very noisy..
i dont no y he will say me until lik tat...
when i hear he say lik tat...
i so sad....
i crying...
i damn heart pain...
but...
he noe ma...
he never will noe how my feeling.....
he wont care me..
im still is his gf ma...
y he always treat me lik tat...

cos i love him...
i treat him lik my bao bei...
cant let him get hurt..
im his gf...
but how also i will protect him...
becos him i die also nvm....
i just wan always be wit him...
i wan always together wit him...
but he wan together wit me forever a not i dont no...
i wont force him...

dear...
how u treat me...
i just tolerate la...
wat u do worng..
until now u still havent change...
u never noe u treat me bad how my feeling...
always u just think urself only...
i told u...
no ppl will tolerate u...
cos u very rude...
not very rude...
is too rude...
i can tolerate u...
i also dont no y...
but my heart...
everyday also pain...
still got few days we already together 1 years...
but...
u will noe ma?
we wan how to celebrate u also dint say...
maybe u already forget la...
i still say wan u give me surprise...
but now i think no surprise edi la...
i wont remind u tat day is wat day edi....
if u feel very important...
u will remember wan..
no need i say u also will celebrate wit me...
will give me a surprise...
1 years edi...
how much i love u...
how much u hurt me...
how many times u say me fan, say me noisy....
how many times u scold me...
how many times u beat me...
how many times i cry becos u....
how many times i sad....
how many times i heart pain...
all tat u noe ma??

i treat u how u noe ma?
i love u so much u noe ma?
now u sleeping edi..
i call u ...
u just will so rude to scold me...
say me fan...
u noe u how ma...
i talking wit u....
u sleep..
then i just wake u up only...
also get scold from u...
u everytime sleep also dint say good 9 wit me...
never noe im here wan....
feel lik i die edi...
wat i do for u also wrong wan...
rite...

u dont wan respect me nvm...
see i wan tolerate until when la...
my family already treat me lik tat...
now is dear...
if i cant tolerate...
i will leave here...
go no ppl know me the place...
cos i damn tired edi...
i dont wan give me parents scold me..
i dont wan wit dear got something happen...
now my parents argue wit me..
scold me...
i only got dear ....
but dear also will same wit them...
i feel i so pity...
izit die edi u all will happy...
y u all wan treat me lik tat...

now ming kor kor at australia...
wat happen on me i also dont no how to say wit him...
kor...
ur mui mui so stupid rite...

dear...
now u treat me the feeling different edi...
sayang me...
caring me...
love me...
treat me good...
all tat feeling already gone...

wat u wan i also give u...
but after u wan...
then throw me...
lik nth happen wit me...
lik no need responsible...
i feel i just lik a ball...
dont wan me liao then kick me out....
lik a garbage...
dont wan liao then throw it...
so easy only...
dear...
rite...

dear...
babe damn miss u..
i hope dear can always at beside me...
hope can everyday see u...
hope can stay wit u..
i noe now cant....
but i hope as fast as long lo...
every day...every hour...every minute...every second...
i also dont wan leave u!!!!
dear ..
i reali very need u...

tat time dear u say u dont have me anymore...
but yesterday i ask dear dear...
dear...
u noe u say wat ma...u say...
"if i dont love u i come find u for wat"...
dear....
u noe ma...
when i hear u say tat...
i wan cry de...
cos i do it de...
i take bak dear the heart come bak edi...
dear love me edi...
tat day hear dear say "i love u" wit me...
i feel very touch..
cos u long time dint say wit me lik tat edi...
dear....
i will keep to make u love me more...
i noe i can do it....

sometimes we still got argue....
but awhile edi we nth liao...
dear...
thx u everytime also tolerate my attitude...
i hope dear can love me more...
care me more...
i wan be the important in ur heart....
dear...
i love u so much..

now is 2.09am....
until now still cant sleep...

i damn moody now...
i feel lik hate my family now....
damn hate...
y...
y they just will scold me...
they wan me go find work...
now i already get job...
but they call me dont go work...
cos until 10pm only finnish work...
wth...
now i find work edi u all also wan scold me...
i dint find work u also wan scold me...
y not fair for me...
u all never noe find work is how hard....
i go there work no need u come fetch me...
i will take bus go bak by myself...
somemore there the salary also very high...
i still can at there learn english...
ask urself la....
u got ask me how i working at there ma??
huh...
u all never ask...
u all just hear the time then dont let me work at there....
y....
i reali dont understand u all..

but...
i damn moody now is...
i never let my mom scold me until lik hell...
make me cry until i cant stop...
i damn heart pain she scold me lik tat....
mom...
im reali is ur daughter ma?
y u will scold me until lik tat...
u say i angry wit 2nd bro...
not i wan angry wit him ok...
is he small gas...
everytime just a small things then lock my computer dont let me on9...
now is he black face wit me ok....
y u must scold me...
y u dont wan go scold him....
y u very not fair for me...
i feel u sayang him more then me...
wat also just scold me...
wat also just blame on me...
u make me no more the mother love daughter the feeling edi...
if u wan let dad beat me then u say la...
i noe u always wan me let daddy scold me wan...
if he beat me i think u more happy...
u dont think i dont no wat ur face la...
sometimes u say something until the voice so blast....
i noe u is wan let daddy hear it...
u always is lik tat...
u wan let him scold me beat me then u say la...
no need do a lot things wan...
u wan i die then u say la....
just now when u scold me....
i cry until cant breathe....
u noe wat u say ma...
u say i be pity....
u noe tat time i cant breathe ma....
u noe the feeling ma...
y u can say i be pity wan...
mom...
i damn hate u now...
i damn sad becos u now....
i already broken heart from u edi....

dad also...
always just will treat me lik a small kind...
dad....
i already 19 years ar...
y u still dont let me freedom...
y i wan pak tuo now u also wan stop me...
u noe wat kind of my bf meh...
huh...
i already 19 years old ar....
can u dont treat me lik a small kind ma....
i noe wat i do wat is fault wat is true ar...
i go out u also wan ask got boys a not...
y u never let me be friends wit boy....
all my boys friend not tat bad guys.....
u always just will think i give ppl lie...
u think im stupid meh...
wat kind of my friends all i noe...
no need u all to worry me....
i just dont wan u all to treat me lik a small kind...
i wan freedom u noe ma...
pls la ...
can ma....
u all dont make me leave from tis house can ma...
i reali cant tolerate u all treat me lik tat ar....
if u all wan scold me blame me born me for wat o...
huh....
dad & mom & bro....
u all reali make me damn hate u all now...
i reali feel lik wan leave from tis house....
i just wan do i like do the things....
can u all dont be busybody ma...
can let me freedom ma...
huh....
pls la...
dont force me leave from this house....
i damn hate u all now...

dear ryan...
thx u....
thx u becos when got something happen on me u never leave me alone crying n sad...
u always by myside to caring me...
wat happen also u will protect me...
dear..
u very important for me...
i love u so much...
i cant leave u...
dear....
thx...