today is last day fotr may at 2o11...
still got 2 more days i will going cameron highlands wit my dear...
is our 1st time 2 person honeymoon....
hope will have a safe trip wit my dear...

recently my life is not so good....
my mood so down...
after he starting playing badminton...
he every monday & tuesday also will going to play badminton....
at 9.30pm until 11.30pm....
actually im not dun let him play...
is i dun like he play at night...
cos he no time to accompany me....
but he misunderstand me...
haiz...
i feel so emo now...
cos when i need him...
he not at here...
i feel he always put me a side...
leave me alone...
i feel so lonely...
lik nobody to care me...
now he care is badminton n his car....
not me...
he told me be4...
he will give up his car 1st...
than buy a new phone for me...
but now..
he just say only...
he keep change his car...
add a lot things...
but my new phone...
is gone edi...
haiz..
always is his car n badminton...
than me is wat?
he can becos go play badminton than go n buy a new racket...
but my phone is going to spoil edi....
he also dint buy a new phone for me...
just feel now im not so important for him la...
so now i will feel so emo...
i make myself lik dun care him go anywhere...
i not wan to treat him lik tat...
is i reali dun wan care it...
if i care...i sure willargue wit him...
so i dun wan...
i just tolerate...
i unhappy..moody...crying...
i also dun wan tell him...
just keep it in my heart...
cos tell him is no use...
suan la...
just let him do wat he like la...
i cannot control him...
ltr he say i dun give him freedom...
but he got think wat he give me ma?
he will nvr noe...
izit i have 2 day will leave him when i feel he is let me alone always?
i dunno...

i think now i need to do something now..
is about my sick...
just need to write a letter if i reali suddenly die without no reason...
dear...
if 1 day i reali leaving u...
pls forgive me...
i noe my sick is cannot to control anymore...
tis few day my headache is very pain more than be4....
i noe my brain sure have something inside...
if i suddenly sleeping until cannot wake up...
is means i already leaving tis world edi...
but u must promise me...
dun sad....
dun cry...
cos i dun wan see u sad...
i just hope when i still live..
can happy together wit u...
just hope have a nice memory wit u..
i dun no we can married a not...
maybe when u wanna to married me...
i already leaving here....
but i think u wont so early wan to married me..
cos u tell me be4 u wont so young married...
u say next year we will engaged at 12-12-2012...
is it will be true?
i dun no..
just wan live when i still have time..
remember...
when i not here...
must take k yourself...
remember tat baby love u so much....
i will always at beside u to protect u....
will be ur angel....
dear....
i love u so much...
thx for u take k me...
take for everything u gave me...
u always in my heart...
muackss...
love u my dear... :)