just now chatting in phone wit my dear...
i crying lik hell in the phone..
cos recently i reali damn no mood...
i keep worry something...
about me n my dear relationship..
i feel our relationship not good edi...
we keep argue...
i keep thinking izit got 1 day we will break up...
i scare i will be alone...
cos i hate alone..
i need a ppl caring n loving me...
tat person is my dear...
cos i feel i reali love him much...
i reali cant leave him...
i dun no y i suddently will feeling it...
izit im crazy...
i dun no...
i just hope our unhappy things will passed it..
start our new life...
i will wait the date we engaged (12-12-2012)...
izit will end of the world at next year?
i dun dare to think...
i hope wont happen it....
cos i have a lot things havent do....
i havent earn money until enough...
havent married wit my dear...
havent have a family wit my dear...
havent have a children wit my dear....
havent go a lot place wit my dear...
still have a lot things i need to do...
just hope the world wont end so fast....


still got 1 things i dint tell my dear...
is about my healthy...
tis few days after stand up....
i feel lik wan pengsan edi...
keep headache...
feel my healthy not good edi...
izit i will die fast?
haiz...
i dun dare to tell him....
i scare he will worry..
tat time take my blood test...
after the report come out....
doctor say i not enough blood...
n xue tang di....
haiz...



until now i already lost 6Kg edi...
i must faster slim it...
no matter how hard also...
just wan my dear can see me become leng lui...\
haha..
cos i noe tis is he wish...



dear...
baby love u so much...
i will remember wat u promise me oo...
u say u wont leave me n will love me forever o..
i will trust u o...
muackss... :)

long time dint updated my blog edi...
haiz...
tis few days mood so down...
keep thinking something..
me n him keep argue at tis few days...
wat happen on me...
izit decide wanna to leave him?
i also dun no..
i feel so stress...
i dun no wat can i do..
still got few days is we together 2 years anniversary de...
can we together more than 2 years...
i dun no...
i scare to wish something...
cos i dun wan dissapointed...

i still love him?
my heart dun no how to answer...
sometimes love him much...
sometimes love him less...

i will leave him?
i also dun no...
if we still keep argue...
if u still cant change ur attitude...
i think i will leave u at 1 day....

i will give up him ?
maybe...
not i dun love u anymore...
is i dun wan argue wit u anymore...
so i will choose single life...

i will always be wit him?
see my feeling how...

i will married him?
50-50...
be4 is 100...
but after he know another girl..
so i will write 50-50...


haiz...
y my relationship will become lik tat T__T....
he will be my last ma?
i dun no..
i just wan to happy be wit him only...
but....T_________T