just now chatting in phone wit my dear...
i crying lik hell in the phone..
cos recently i reali damn no mood...
i keep worry something...
about me n my dear relationship..
i feel our relationship not good edi...
we keep argue...
i keep thinking izit got 1 day we will break up...
i scare i will be alone...
cos i hate alone..
i need a ppl caring n loving me...
tat person is my dear...
cos i feel i reali love him much...
i reali cant leave him...
i dun no y i suddently will feeling it...
izit im crazy...
i dun no...
i just hope our unhappy things will passed it..
start our new life...
i will wait the date we engaged (12-12-2012)...
izit will end of the world at next year?
i dun dare to think...
i hope wont happen it....
cos i have a lot things havent do....
i havent earn money until enough...
havent married wit my dear...
havent have a family wit my dear...
havent have a children wit my dear....
havent go a lot place wit my dear...
still have a lot things i need to do...
just hope the world wont end so fast....


still got 1 things i dint tell my dear...
is about my healthy...
tis few days after stand up....
i feel lik wan pengsan edi...
keep headache...
feel my healthy not good edi...
izit i will die fast?
haiz...
i dun dare to tell him....
i scare he will worry..
tat time take my blood test...
after the report come out....
doctor say i not enough blood...
n xue tang di....
haiz...



until now i already lost 6Kg edi...
i must faster slim it...
no matter how hard also...
just wan my dear can see me become leng lui...\
haha..
cos i noe tis is he wish...



dear...
baby love u so much...
i will remember wat u promise me oo...
u say u wont leave me n will love me forever o..
i will trust u o...
muackss... :)