alone day~

yesterday i accident..
i give a car bang me...my head get hurt...
nobody noe...
becos i alone go night market....
when i was going bak...suddenly the car turn in..
maybe he dint see me than bang me...i fall down..
tat time i was think...
"dear, where r u, can u help me ? "..
but...until the end i dint call him...

the person say send me to hospital...
i say no need...

just a small matter...

my head get hurt only...

he apologize wit me...

actually cannot blame him at all...

maybe the time i walking..

i thinking things...
so i dint attention got car is turn in...

i just noe my head is fucking pain now..

i going home...

i dun dare to tell anyone...

i go bak my room...

im crying...

becos i wan to let him noe...

but...

he dint sms me or call me...

tat time he was wit friend...

he dint care me at all..

so i just keep crying...

i scare my brain got blood...

so i dun dare to sleep...

until he reach home...

i cry infront of him...

but he lik nth...

he dint ask me y im cry, dint ask wat happen on me...

tat time i was damn hurt...

i damn sad...

wat he also dun wanna to caring me...
he just tell me...

he wanna sleep...

i keep calling him...
but he off his phone edi..

izit he can do tis fucking things for me?

huh.......

wat kind of tis bf...?

suan la...

he dun wanna to noe...

i also dun wan to call him...

i just sms him....let him noe...

until mid night i only can sleep..

i scare i sleep edi i cant wake up anymore...

but today im wake up de...

i have a nightmare...

i dreaming about tat im reali dead...

i leave him go another world edi...

izit tis dream will be true?

i dunno.....
i dint tell him...

he asking me got go see doctor ma...

i say no need...

i noe tat he dun believe me...

nvm la..

he dun believe...

i also no need to explain anymore...

becos he dun trust me..

see la..

his gf accident he also dun trust...

if i reali dead...

he also not trust rite?

he think i bluff him..

excuse lo..

y i wan to lie him?

is good for me?

IS NO~!!!

he dun caring me n loving at all...

i noe de....

i can feel it...

if he reali love me...

can he show for me how much he love me?
until now my head still pain...

just now i go outside alone walk walk....

its raining de...

i hope tat i can suddenly die in the road..

becos i loose everything....

i loose my love n him...

if i die edi...

no more sad n hurt for me...

but i love him...

i reali love him so much...

he dunno...

now he at his friend sister wedding dinner...
friday is our together 1000 days...

i think he wont remember de la...

1000 days....

is a big number....

next year i will Pokai edi...

i have to prepare present n use a lot money...

i need to buy valentine's day present...3rd years anniversary present....

and the most important the present is him 21st birthday present....

i already think wat i wan to buy edi...

next month i wan to save money edi...

hmm....
just now check the i-phone 4s price...

feel wanna buy...

but i feel wanna use couple phone wit him...

dunno he wan a not...

haiz..

burberry n LV bag...

when i only can get u ?

ask him to buy for me...

but he give me the answer is NO~!!

suan la..

dun wan to ask him give me everything tat i wan...

cos is no use...

he wont buy for me de la..
buy by myself la...